God, are you playing games with me right now?

Dear Daphne

Put him down

That clown of a thing you call a man

Put him down

Put it down

That liquid courage

Too much courage

Made you foolish now

You'll drown

You'll drown

Stay with me

Your eyes are rolling

To the back of your head

Stay with me

Remember the things that I said

Til then I'll keep holding your head

Your head

I was there

A dead soul looking for love

In pretty snake holes

You're now there

You're opening

Bombs in gift wrap

Without a care

Get out of there

Get out of there

I see so much of me in you

But only the pages I threw

Away from my story

You don't need that kind of

Black and blue

Marking up your heart and

Bleeding through

All of your pages

Remember the love that I sent

Til then I'll keep

Holding your head

Your head...

College/life update!

Dear blog,

Its been a while. College has been an interesting experience so far.

I like it. The freedom, the escape from the incessant nagging of my parents.

I love them, I really do. But sometimes, family just becomes a little too much and I want nothing more than to leave the house. Living here, I feel like I have so much more free time. Haha.

Pharmaceutical Science major. Oh me oh my. Little did I know the gravity of taking on biology and chemistry simultaneously. What a task.

I really do envy my roommate Steve. He's a psych major taking psychology, history, and philosophy. He doesn't even have half of the homework that I have. Its ridiculous.

Its so very interesting rooming with Kevin and Steve. We all "knew" each other, but we were never close. But its funny how we sort of get along. Honestly, I think that its still very possible to get into a fight. But it will be hard. And since we're guys, I'm sure we'll get over it quickly.

So some of the little quirks that I found out from my first month with these two:

Steve: sucks at video games besides 2k11

constantly looking for/talking about girls or texting them

loves naps

eats slow

Kevin: also has an affinity for girls without as much luck as Steve

eats SUPER SUPER slow

sensitive body and he definitely needs to pack on some meat

sleep talks (like almost every night)

Sigh. I too have been looking for some potential lady friends. And to my dismay, I haven't had much luck. I guess not being interested in having a girlfriend my entire life also means that I have no game. But then again, maybe I'm aiming too high. I've been looking for really pretty, smart girls. But of course, why would they look at me? Sigh. This is my condition.

Oh yeah. And Chemistry can go suck it.

You say you're after the pursuit of happiness, but you have so much anger/depression/hate in your heart.

Does wishing death over other people make you happy?

I really do hope you find happiness, so you could let your anger go.

Or is it that you have to let your anger go to find happiness?

I hope you'd figure it out on your own.

I'm a no-good selfish son of a bitch.

Perspective?

Hmm. I was just reading some blogs and I realized that the blogger was using much higher vocabulary than he/she uses in real life. I'm not sure what it was, but some party of me felt a bit annoyed at this particular feature. And then I thought "Crap, do I do this too?"

And I think I do. My vocabulary in my blogs are a bit more advanced than everyday vernacular. (Case and point).

However, as I pointed this out to a friend, I also came to realize that writing is more formal than speech and thus requires formality, organization, and enhanced vocabulary. Furthermore, blogs with a sense of sophistication are more interesting to read than blogs that use "LOL" and "OMG".

But then again, I guess it all boils down to perspective and preference and whatnot.

Well, this blog did not really have a purpose. It was just a sudden realization that occurred to me and which I thought was interesting enough to blog about.

I'm exhausted. Life has been giving me curve balls lately.

So many downturns, but little bits of happiness and carefree leisure in between.

The constant emotions ups and downs recently have begun to take its toll on me.