Today, I was thinking about me. Who I was. Who I've become.
I've realized that I am not the same Jonathan from 2009.
I've changed and sadly, I cannot say for the better.

I used to be a nice guy. Someone who all my friends' parents loved.
Someone who wasn't a bad kid, but instead a kind, conservative teen who you'd never expect anything bad from.
But here I am. Sitting in this spot. What happened?
Was it the car accident? Was it stress? Friends?

Regardless of the cause, I must concentrate on the effect it has had on me.
That isn't to say that I'm not a nice guy anymore. Its just, I'm not the same.
When did I start all this?

I don't know any of this for sure, but I do know one thing.
I don't like what I've become and now I am determined to change once again.
I don't want to let go. Never.