I think the many months spent living in Irvine has led me to hate living back in the house.
I can't sleep as much as I want because I don't have a door in my bedroom so I get woken up early Saturday and Sunday morning as the rest of the family go about their business.
I can't get any studying done because there is just no atmosphere and too many distractions.
I can't stay up as long as I want because my parents still think they should control my sleep schedule.
I can't do what I want because my parents have a say in whatever I do.

Its just...답답해. Its no longer freedom. Its back to how life was in high school. I'm not ready to go back.
Some kids don't go home the entire school year. Their parents call in once a quarter to check if they're alive. I don't want that. But I also don't want my parents breathing down my neck every time I go home, trying to tell me what to do.

I think I argue with my mom every time I come home. This time it was about contacts. I ran out so I need to get some more, but my mom wants me to drive down to downtown LA, get an eye exam, and then buy the contacts. I've already had a check up 6 months ago. I don't feel a need for another one. So I told my mom that I wouldn't take an eye exam and would rather order contacts online. She gets mad. Things escalate to the point where I say I'm not coming back home for the rest of the quarter and she says she's cutting me off financially.

Now, am I a bad son for not wanting to take an eye exam? Yes, optometrists recommend getting an eye check up every 6 months. But how many people brush their teeth after every meal? Its just a recommendation. Not a rule, just optional. Is my mom terrible for getting mad at my decision? No, obviously the eye exam is for me and not her. She just wants the best for me. But I don't think that she's realized that I'm a college student with almost two decades under my belt. Yeah 20 years old is still young, but its old enough to know what you want and take control of your life.

I'm just so fucking tired of it. Why do I have to fight my parents when I get to see them maybe twice a month? I don't want to fight. Fuck. Maybe I should just declare independence.